Gay Swag on You

vangoghsdaughter:

okaytodreamlove:

I want my first marriage to be my only marriage.

but I won’t get married at all because I know it wouldn’t be.

I’d just like to be able to legally marry. 

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All I’m Asking….

I never asked to be born thirteen years after my closest sibling.

I never asked to indoctrinated since birth to believe I’ll burn if I’m “sinful”.

I never asked to watch my brother rot away on a hospital bed from chemo and cancer.

I never asked to watch my family fall apart, while my brother’s life just failed.

I never asked to go with mom, until her new husband threw me into a wall while he was tweaking. 

I never asked to watch her be held down, beaten, and beer poured over her bare body.

I never asked to be given back to dad, just to watch him drink his life away. 

I never asked to be the one he let his hurt and anger out on after losing his entire life’s work.

I never asked to walk down the street with his crack head girl friend, watching out for cops so she could hit the rock.

I never asked to be pinned to a couch, choked to near unconsciousness, thrown into a locked room with the power pulled.

I never asked to have to beg and plead “Daddy please don’t get rid of me, please quit hating me, please quit drinking…. I promise I’ll be better”

I never asked to have a drunk father, a meth freak mother, a dead brother.

I never asked to be tormented at school.

I never asked for my wal-mart clothes to deem me uncool.

I never to go without heat, electricity, or even running water.

I never asked to have to boil bath water.

I never asked to be a social outcast.

I never asked to discover I was different from everyone else.

I never asked to called a faggot…. and for it to be true. 

I never asked to be alone, razor on skin. 

I never asked to be suicidal, with no will to live. 

I never asked to be addicted, for just seeking relief.

I never asked to wrong, by just being me. 

I never asked to be an abomination, forsaken even by God.

I never asked to live in fear of being stabbed, killed, or beaten with rods.

I never asked to raped, my freedom taken from me. 

I never asked to remember just how bad he hurt me. 

I never asked to be stuck in this shitty house. 

I never asked for a family who can’t help me get out. 

I never asked to lose friends, over things I can’t change. 

I never asked my sister to move away. 

I never asked to be part of a lost generation. 

I never asked to be born into a hypocritical nation. 

I never asked to be here, writing this now. 

I never asked to be a lost voice in the crowd. 

I never asked for any of these things.

All I’m asking is, they do not ruin me.